What is it that you REALLY want? Stop thinking about what society tells you to want. Stop thinking about what your friends or family would say. Get out of your head. You’ve just been sitting around pondering it over and over and over, and you make excuses for it over and over. However, have you ever done the work that needs to be done to get where you want to be? This issue is very important to you, and yet all you have done is sit around and wait for it to happen to you. How much longer are you going to tell yourself that it isn’t important? How much longer are you willing to wait? In some ways you’ve been doing this so long that you think you don’t feel the emotion from it anymore and so you’re ok. In fact you are bogging yourself down. This can cause you to be tired or sick, so you really aren’t fine. Set a time limit and do what you need to do.